For the first time this year, the rabbits have reappeared in the field behind where I live. I spotted them yesterday as they bounced cheerfully around, managing to avoid cannoning into any loitering sheep.
This made me think back to two years ago when I really wasn't noticing very much - I thought I was, but, in fact, I wasn't! I'm continually astounded at how far I've come since then. I still can't connect the "me" I am now with the "me" who had cancer. I hear people talking about cancer - well, mouthing the word rather than saying it (one of my big complaints is still that many people won't talk about cancer openly!) and yet I don't feel that it has anything to do with me. Other cancer survivors I talk to say the same thing - they can't make the connection between them and their previous, sick persona. And then there are the people who say to me, "You wouldn't think you'd ever had cancer". Why not? What do they expect? Is cancer still such a taboo subject that we all find it difficult to make the connection?
This made me think back to two years ago when I really wasn't noticing very much - I thought I was, but, in fact, I wasn't! I'm continually astounded at how far I've come since then. I still can't connect the "me" I am now with the "me" who had cancer. I hear people talking about cancer - well, mouthing the word rather than saying it (one of my big complaints is still that many people won't talk about cancer openly!) and yet I don't feel that it has anything to do with me. Other cancer survivors I talk to say the same thing - they can't make the connection between them and their previous, sick persona. And then there are the people who say to me, "You wouldn't think you'd ever had cancer". Why not? What do they expect? Is cancer still such a taboo subject that we all find it difficult to make the connection?
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