Just over a week to go until the next hospital visit. My anxiety grows. What is that twinge? Why am I coughing (it couldn't possibly be anything to do with the cold that's been hanging around)? Why don't I want to get out of bed in the morning?
Sometimes I ask myself whether it wouldn't be better if I could just take myself to the local hospital and wait to see someone when I chose, not at their convenience. That way, I wouldn't spend weeks worrying about the next visit because I could just get up one morning and go.
I know that these check-ups are to ensure that there's nothing brewing, but I do wonder whether they're worth all the stress (after all, stress can be a contributory factor in cancer...)
Sometimes I ask myself whether it wouldn't be better if I could just take myself to the local hospital and wait to see someone when I chose, not at their convenience. That way, I wouldn't spend weeks worrying about the next visit because I could just get up one morning and go.
I know that these check-ups are to ensure that there's nothing brewing, but I do wonder whether they're worth all the stress (after all, stress can be a contributory factor in cancer...)
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