What now?

I've spent today contemplating the future. I know I have to go for another check-up in August, but I'm free till then (if I'm spared, as my grandfather used to say every night). I gave up my job last year when I began to feel too ill to continue (among other reasons) and, since then, have worked part time only.

So, what now? Do I really want to work full time again? Or should I try life as a contractor? What I've learned over the last few months is that we never know what's going to happen next. Right now, I don't think I want to commit myself to anything - I might not be here tomorrow, after all, and there's a lot I still want to do before that long and final sleep.

In a way, it's exciting. I've been given the chance to try again. In another way, it's terrifying; can I really let go of the security of a regular income and simply "go with the flow"?

More soon...