My acupuncturist asked me what I was going to do now for myself. She said she wanted to challenge me. She succeeded! And she was right - I've spent the last 6 - 7 years with my life filled with my cancer; cancer of the spirit, if you will, once the physical symptoms were gone. Once that huge shadow lifts, there's a correspondingly huge hole in your life. So far, I've been trundling along as usual, feeling vaguely discontented but not knowing why. That question, "What are you going to do for yourself now?" has led to reflection on my part. The source of the discontent, at least, has been identified - the cancer shaped hole is an enormous space to fill. Now, all I need to do is make some decisions. The question now is, will I be brave enough to do so?
Like any enemy, when they're gone, something has to fill the void. I wonder how long it takes to do that?
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