I've been thinking about the last two years. I wonder if I've been trying to prove something not only to myself but to the world in general... namely that cancer isn't going to slow me down? Indeed, if anything, though I've stopped working full time, I've been working harder than ever, taking on more and more work, partly because I need to earn money to pay bills, but also so that I can say that I'm ok.
And, of course, I've started exercising more, which is all to the good.
Having said all that, since my surgery, I've been saying that it's necessary to live for the moment. Have I been doing that? Or have I just been proving a point? Two years on, it's time to take stock and maybe to reconsider my priorities again... There is, I think, a danger after serious illness that the initial euphoria of feeling well again leads us back into exactly the behaviour that caused the illness in the first place. Time now, it seems to me, to consider the benefits of sitting under a palm tree and watching life go by...
And, of course, I've started exercising more, which is all to the good.
Having said all that, since my surgery, I've been saying that it's necessary to live for the moment. Have I been doing that? Or have I just been proving a point? Two years on, it's time to take stock and maybe to reconsider my priorities again... There is, I think, a danger after serious illness that the initial euphoria of feeling well again leads us back into exactly the behaviour that caused the illness in the first place. Time now, it seems to me, to consider the benefits of sitting under a palm tree and watching life go by...
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